i had a dream that i cut my eyelid in half and then when i put a gauze piece on it and taped it up people kept on pulling it off and poking at my bleeding eye and this is what it feels like to be born and loved and hated and told goodbye for the first and last times just quit poking at my eye because it ******* hurts and this is what it feels like to be in a hospital for the first time after you have taken forty of your favorite pills and hoped to never wake up again i wasn't even born in a hospital but man i don't wanna go back but what if i need to does this make me weak my eye hurts