I was sure You were the one. You gave me such hope, such contentment. If You could understand, the way I feel about You. Well im not sure. But now? This is an all time low. I have never felt this worthless. What is the value of my life? Nothing. At least to You. And what about me? Who do I care for? Where is my loved one? Why does no one ask? Oh right. Sometimes I forget how alone I actually am. And sometimes I don't even think You notice, or care. This isn't something You could possibly hope to understand. You've always had someone. You've always been loved. Even if it wasn't me. After all this, I truly believe I am to blame. I set You on this path of destruction, this craving for something more, starting with our own failed bond.
My Love, I am unworthy of apologizing. The damage that has been done...
But i'm sorry, I'm sorry for ruining this. I'm sorry for saying hi to You I'm sorry for saying forever I'm sorry for everything.
II.
Why can't You see you're all I desire? Don't You want true love? Don't You crave a companion, who longs to spend every waking moment with You? I do not understand. So I will continue this journey of uncertainty. This path through hell. And I walk alone. It is clear to me. I was destined to be alone.