Jun 2015
You're the reason why I stand here on my own two feet.
After many times I've been broken down, torn apart and shattered in to pieces, I'm still here.
To the person who once gave their all to me, but I was too foolish to keep it in my own hands:
I'm sorry. I was young and reckless, I didn't know what love was.
Love back then was something I thought came easy. You were everything to me, I just wasn't the right one for you. I had no idea that there was so much value in loving until one day, you just left me and that's when I knew how much I loved you. Crazy right? How I had to hit my lowest point just to realize it. You deserved so much better. You gave me so many chances, and somehow they just didnt work. You taught me the importance of giving love, rather than receiving it. You taught me what love was and what it was really like to feel heart broken. The butterflies in my stomach every time we touched, the feelings you made me feel, even the sleepless nights crying to Ed Sheeran songs at 3 am. Moments that have made a big impact on my life and I will surely never forget. Thank you for loving me and making me feel like I was perfect when I really wasn't.
To the person who I gave my heart to, but didn't know what to do with it:
It's okay. I don't regret a thing. You deserve it, but maybe not coming from me. We're meant to be in each other's lives, just not in that way. I realized I couldn't keep your heart from hurting when I, myself was suffering too. I watched you get hurt a million of times and I'd be lying if I say I didn't feel the same way every time you did. Know with your heart that every single piece of mine had your name written on it with a marker, only to be washed away by the tears I cried every time you walked away. Although these pieces were very small, somehow I tried sticking them back together again just to give it to you. I fought tooth and nail just to hold myself together and give the best I could to you, but it wasn't enough. I'm not the girl who would sweep you off your feet. I don't blame you, you're hurting as well. I know you don't wanna break my heart because it's as fragile as yours, but you did it effortlessly and without knowing. I hope you heal, I hope you find the right love that is the one for you. I wish you luck and I wish it true, because that's the best I can do for you.
To the person who I will love and will love me back in the future:
God knows what I've been through just to be with you. I know that it might have been a shot in the dark, but I'm glad that we made it somehow. Hopefully, this time I get to love you with being cautious of my mistakes in the past. I promise to give you all of me, and to never run out of my love for you. I'm sure that with my heart in your hands, you'll treat me right and love me the same way I love you. Thank you for giving me a shot at the love I wish I gave and the love that I have given, but never got back.
To the person who has been broken down, torn apart and shattered into pieces:
Thank you for staying here. Thank you for being patient and never loosing hope. Through every heart break, you've managed to piece the broken pieces back together. All by yourself. Keep staying strong and always stay true to yourself. Do not let the world make you rough. If it's one thing, help soften the hearts of those loved ones who have been toughened up by the hardships in life. Keep giving and giving, but never expect anything in return. Remember to always know when you've had enough and if it isn't worth it anymore. Respect yourself enough to walk away from the things that no longer make you happy, even if it's hard and it hurts. You are your own hero.
Love has made me the happiest, saddest and craziest person I could possibly be. One thing's for sure is that it changed me a whole lot, and it's definitely worth it. Every **** time.
After many times I've been broken down, torn apart and shattered in to pieces, I'm still here.
To the person who once gave their all to me, but I was too foolish to keep it in my own hands:
I'm sorry. I was young and reckless, I didn't know what love was.
Love back then was something I thought came easy. You were everything to me, I just wasn't the right one for you. I had no idea that there was so much value in loving until one day, you just left me and that's when I knew how much I loved you. Crazy right? How I had to hit my lowest point just to realize it. You deserved so much better. You gave me so many chances, and somehow they just didnt work. You taught me the importance of giving love, rather than receiving it. You taught me what love was and what it was really like to feel heart broken. The butterflies in my stomach every time we touched, the feelings you made me feel, even the sleepless nights crying to Ed Sheeran songs at 3 am. Moments that have made a big impact on my life and I will surely never forget. Thank you for loving me and making me feel like I was perfect when I really wasn't.
To the person who I gave my heart to, but didn't know what to do with it:
It's okay. I don't regret a thing. You deserve it, but maybe not coming from me. We're meant to be in each other's lives, just not in that way. I realized I couldn't keep your heart from hurting when I, myself was suffering too. I watched you get hurt a million of times and I'd be lying if I say I didn't feel the same way every time you did. Know with your heart that every single piece of mine had your name written on it with a marker, only to be washed away by the tears I cried every time you walked away. Although these pieces were very small, somehow I tried sticking them back together again just to give it to you. I fought tooth and nail just to hold myself together and give the best I could to you, but it wasn't enough. I'm not the girl who would sweep you off your feet. I don't blame you, you're hurting as well. I know you don't wanna break my heart because it's as fragile as yours, but you did it effortlessly and without knowing. I hope you heal, I hope you find the right love that is the one for you. I wish you luck and I wish it true, because that's the best I can do for you.
To the person who I will love and will love me back in the future:
God knows what I've been through just to be with you. I know that it might have been a shot in the dark, but I'm glad that we made it somehow. Hopefully, this time I get to love you with being cautious of my mistakes in the past. I promise to give you all of me, and to never run out of my love for you. I'm sure that with my heart in your hands, you'll treat me right and love me the same way I love you. Thank you for giving me a shot at the love I wish I gave and the love that I have given, but never got back.
To the person who has been broken down, torn apart and shattered into pieces:
Thank you for staying here. Thank you for being patient and never loosing hope. Through every heart break, you've managed to piece the broken pieces back together. All by yourself. Keep staying strong and always stay true to yourself. Do not let the world make you rough. If it's one thing, help soften the hearts of those loved ones who have been toughened up by the hardships in life. Keep giving and giving, but never expect anything in return. Remember to always know when you've had enough and if it isn't worth it anymore. Respect yourself enough to walk away from the things that no longer make you happy, even if it's hard and it hurts. You are your own hero.
Love has made me the happiest, saddest and craziest person I could possibly be. One thing's for sure is that it changed me a whole lot, and it's definitely worth it. Every **** time.
