I longed for your return; Waiting patiently by the window, I forgot how to live. With a kiss you were gone; sent away to fight a noble cause; You said the only noble cause in life was loving me, if anything. Watching you fade into a cloud of smoke, right then I knew this day would come. You said: “Curse the Gods! A moment without you is a moment without breath.” I lost count of the moments, and of the breaths. In a distant memory, you hold me close; Now, all that holds me close was the beckoning gloom.
Cold in bed, I turn to where you should be; I shun the emptiness, resenting it for your absence. The apparent expansion of time torments me; You’ve been gone but a month; but really a life has passed. I’m sure the window has grown tired of the hours spent upon his fading frame, The shuddering breaths fogging up the panes that now rarely boast the sunlight.
The carnations tossed a sorry, red sight across the hall As you came through the door; The languid form before me bore no resemblance to the man who left. A tear escaped your eye as you recognised my loss of faith. I shivered at your touch; your kiss was unfamiliar. I closed my eyes, And I knew that you had gone.