I sit at the portal day after day. Gnostic information, news and images fill my mind, but do not satisfy. I learn and learn, but I do not grow. Ghastly pictures of carnage come and go. So much more than I can ever weep for. Why is it then,Β that times of too much tenderness, make me cry? What is it about a loving gesture that breaks the dam? Perhaps because it is too late..