Here I am again
Sitting at work on the bathroom floor
Wiping black tears from my face
This has happened before
All because of a story about
Someone else’s good day

I don’t want to get into details
Because when I think about it
I can’t stop
Let’s just say the movies
Don’t prepare you to be
Constantly pushed around
Until you confuse love for
Sleepless nights and grayness

I’m my own worst enemy
I can talk myself out of almost anything
Who would love a girl who’s afraid to feel?
It just seems like I get punished
Every time I give up
Anything beneath the surface
I don’t want to give anyone a chance
To be unimpressed

I dream of my pain being
Endearing
And for someone to sweep me off my feet
Like in a movie
I didn’t think that it could ever happen
And then despite my wrongs
You knew just what to say
For me to want to open the door to my cave

Because I don't want to be my own enemy
I want to take chances without even thinking
I want to love and to feel everything
To share what's beneath the surface and
To have it be worth it
I won't be scared of someone being unimpressed
Because you are impressed
I'll do my best
To keep my head
Out of the way of
What's coming next