I run to be
only with myself
to help me
I run and wash away my surroundings
with music, and thought
I run and imagine
myself
with two inches between my thighs,
with ribs on my chest,
and hip bones showing
perfectly symmetrical
I keep running
I imagine running
far enough
that the undesirable pieces of me fall to the ground
I run and hope
it will be an instant change
I keep running
and running
I run and wonder
if he will drive by
I run and wonder
if he'll wave
I run and wonder
if I will wave
I keep running
and running
and running
I run and hope
no one is home when I get there
I keep running
and running
faster
I run and want
to be irresistible
unstoppable
I run and try to focus
I keep running
and running
and running
faster
and faster
and faster
until I think, "is this actually helping me?"
I don't care
I keep running
alone with my dangerous thoughts
I keep running