This road has been windy
This road has been painful
This road has been confusing
But I wouldn’t trade it
I wouldn’t go back on what is done
I don’t regret even a minute

I remember that snowy November day
I remember the anxiety that I held
And I remember learning a lot
I remember the weeks that followed
I remember learning about this girl
And I remember that final decision

I remember that rainy December day
I remember almost vomiting
And I remember pouring out to her
I remember the great feeling
I remember knowing that girl
And I remember the painful week

I remember that dark January night
I remember the tears we cried
I remember the tearing apart
I remember the weeks that followed
I remember the pain that came
And I remember the pain remains

I remember that cold February night
I remember dinner with Josh
And I remember his big question
I remember deciding to wait
I remember preparing for pain
And I remember the hope I still hold

I'm prepared to continue down this road
Even though she's only a friend
I know the pain may be great
And the time will linger
As I walk along this road and wait
Hoping for paths to cross again

I know this could all be in vain
That it may be permanently done
That it won't be worth my pain
Even in these realizations
I do hope this is worth my time
And contains no regret

I know waiting is never easy
And I know time passes slowly
That not all ends well
But I won't abandon
I wait and see
It'll be a while before I leave

For now we are separate
And it hurts like hell
So I'll do all I can do
I love her the only way I can
I'll love her as her brother
And maybe one day I love her as myself

Some will criticize
They will question my sanity
Some will say move along
They will say not to linger here
But shouldn't end well, it'll be worth it
It won't be in vain

"And if it is in vain?”
They'll ask me
“Then I'll have learned”
Learned about pain
And the grace and healing comes with
I'll know the road well

And I know she's worth waiting for
I know there's something good, should I make it across the sea
I seen each deep part
The parts that lie broken and empty
But also the deep beauty of her heart
And I know she'd be worth the wait

I know if in the end we become one
That it will be worth the wait
It will be well worth the pain
Because she'll be worth it all

And if in the end we are separate, so be it
Better days will lie ahead
And if they don’t, the best days are yet to come
She and I will find love elsewhere

For now I’ll wait
And one day it may pay off
And I’ll praise God
Or it may not pay off
And I’ll praise God