I still lack self control
My veins burn and ache with the need to know.
But I learned what I sought, and it broke my ******* heart.
*******'s the word because I'm so ******* hurt.
But more so I'm afraid I wouldn't have been able to control this fire...
Were I with you... Love... Were we together...
And that hurts more than any acid in my body bubbling through the cracks. Or the dullness that has come over my life. Or the alcohol infused future that I constantly attract.