there's the me i keep inside,
safe behind the walls i spent a lifetime building,
not to keep others out,
but just to keep safe
from the unintended assaults
that come from being near people.
they don't understand what they do,
and the more i try to fit in with them,
not care, not notice,
the more i feel my secret self becoming corrupted,
and the walls get built higher.
to break free from this fortress
will break hearts and minds
and shatter everything they know
and i don't know if they can take it -
but i have to do it,
because this lonely castle as yet has no roof -
i can still see out,
see the daylight and let it warm me,
soothe me, console and comfort -
i have to hurry before the roof is built
and i lose all that's left of me,
just to save them.