You wanna be famous
i'm not sure if I wanna be alive
I see what you've got
when it's not just me and you
I like you better when i've got you
even if it's just between my words
when I want your head between my thighs
your lip between my lips
and your thumb digging the hollow of my throat
you're too shiny for everyone else
you don't smile with your eyes
I'd rather you choke me than kiss another girl
I hope at your wedding night
you'll come running to me and tell me you've always had it wrong
I feel right around you
like i'm bearable and maybe even likeable
but as soon as it goes wrong
I'm breathing hard in the front seat of my car
until my head is spinning
gripping the wheel with white knuckles
I've got you manipulated and I hate it
sorry, it's a gemini thing.
I told you I wasn't in love with you
and I'm not
it's just that my mouth is full of things I can't say
because I can't put how I feel about you into words
it's not any more or less
it's just different
I recognise a look when people have fallen for you
it's part flustered
part heart eyes
and I feel like you see it on every face you meet
it's on mine too but you're reading it wrong
I don't want you to buy me gifts and tell me you love me
I want you to slap me hard and **** me on the floor
I want you to pull my hair and scream my name
I want you to text me 'good morning, thinking about you'
every day
but to not pay attention to me when we go out
until you push me up against the wall and hold my hips until they bruise
at 2am in front of everyone we know
teeth working my lips until they bleed
you wanna be famous
me too
I'm not sure if I wanna be alive
but i'll stick around for you