I was chatting in an adult chat
As I often do

Jerking off
As no woman wants to touch me
Sad but true

I like to pretend to be a mean beautiful woman there
Stroking happily without a care

30f4insecurefem my screen name reads
Who knows where the next chat will lead

I started talking to a woman who was insecure
She had some emotional baggage, that's for sure

I invited her to a private chat with my friend Jen
Gorgeous girls we are
I had pictures to prove it
We are both 10s

I encouraged Alyssa to not give up
To put down the oreos and maintain a strict diet

She thanked us and seemed happy

But Jen my friend (I was typing as Jen too)
She is the bad part of me and you
She told Alyssa to state her weight

A couple of times
5'4 171
Alyssa told us

Alyssa was quiet
I have a feeling she did not feel that great

Why was I first kind and supportive
And then mean?
Roleplaying as these women
Strange it seems

In the end Alyssa I'm just like you
Inside a body I cannot change
Painful but true

I lifted weights my whole life
Never got big or strong!
Still a lanky guy
What I said to Alyssa was wrong

But she messaged me
She wanted to chat

I asked her if she was looking at the oreo again
Please stop eating
It's a terrible sin

I told her she was a good person

When I was young I wanted to be strong
Lifted weights constantly all day long
Ended up damaging the muscle tissue some
I don't think a woman will ever want to see me ***

Now I can't be big or strong
No matter much I lift
Still a lanky guy
****-- ****!

I just want to meet some women or have a good time
But the only way I can talk to women is online

So be strong Alyssa
You have to be
I was cruel, but the world has been cruel to me

Say a prayer you'll be okay
And go on to fight another day