We were young only you were older Friends in a different country Pushed together by parents and language I was young, young enough to not worry about the way I look, who likes me and who does not We played a lot Even barbies your sister and I like We had family barbecues, outings, swimming–adventures I told you I loved adventures You told me you love a girl who loves adventures I told you I was scared you told me You like a girl who was scared You pushed my back to take me closer to the clouds telling me to hold on to the swings You were the best friend I had for a summer three summers to be exact Then one summer you confessed that it was I you liked I admit my palms got sweaty and my heart rushed I was scared Because earlier that day my family teased me that you were my boyfriend And I, being young, did not want that I turned you down Then stayed from a distance Then when I grew up a little I would wonder why my cheeks would blush in the thoughts of you I liked you too but I would never admit that Then, your mom said you already had a girlfriend We talked again you said it was true You said she was pretty that you liked her But what shocked me is when you told me I was beautiful But that was how our story ended Because you had to go away and I, was always traveling But today made me wonder of you
This is to the first boy who admitted he likes me. I'm sorry if I kept distance. But our four years gap that time meant that I won't understand you the way you wanted me to. It was too late. You were my secret and that made you more special. My mom talked about you today, I guess you'll be part of a what if in my life even though I wouldn't have chosen it any other way. I already belong to the one who holds my heart. But then again, you're a part of me. Good luck on being a pilot, Sam