Pain,
as if you are stabbed in the heart
with a needle
repeatedly.
Not damaging enough to **** you
but the pain,
the pain
is unbearable.
as if your heart is being ripped out
torn to pieces
and put back in.
I knew
it would not work
from the day
I laid my eyes upon you.
I know
It would not work
not before
not now
Why do I torment myself?
I don't know
But deep inside
there is this strand of hope
where I hope it would all work out
against all odds
and I'll be next to you
holding your hand
embracing you.
But I knew
it would not happen
from the day
I laid my eyes upon you
I know
it would not happen
not before
not now
You cannot begin
to fathom
my affection for you
for it is no longer a feeling
that can be described
with the word like
like two years ago.
But it doesn't matter
my heart belongs to you
but yours is somewhere else
belonging to someone else.
And all I can do
is to wish nothing but the best for you
for if I really love you
I would place your happiness above
mine
and all other things