i saw a picture of you with her today many who saw seemed to ignore the fact that i was, in fact, yours at such a recent time people complimented the two of you, what a wonderful pair; it took everything in me not to pitch my phone to the concrete.
i told you i had nothing left to say but now as i catch glimpses of your smile directed at someone else and overhear broken pieces of lighthearted conversations that sound like ones we used to share, my mind swells with thoughts that won't slip past my teeth.
i keep telling myself i'll be okay* without the expectation that you would so easily find someone new to confide in, to trust like i trusted you; now, as i watch you stop mid-stride to talk to her, now that i can see you looking at someone the same way you looked at me when you told me i meant everything and more to you, i stop believing the mantras i've been repeating.