It’s gone past loneliness; It’s become acceptance. I allow my misery to consume me, I allow my pain to be my only friend, I no longer fight to feel relevant, And I no longer beg to not be left alone. I’ve given in to the empty silence And the constant nights at home; Watching TV in the dark, Seeing shadows flicker Across the wall. A sad and lonely Pink haze fills the room, It smells of *** and incense; Take another hit And pass it to myself.
My mind drifts to you . . .
I wonder how you’re feeling, I wonder if I’ll see you again, I wonder . . . I wonder. I think of all The tears I cried When I knew I was in love with you. How sad a day To be in love With the one That doesn’t love You too!
And still I gave myself to you . . .
You broke inside of me And you took my soul away. I feel the sorrow Wrapped ‘round my heart, And the loathing in my gut. I knew all along That I was just your little ***** ****. I dropped to my knees When my phone would ring, Ready and eager To do just about anything. And, in the end, As you lay beside me Dreaming of her, I turn away In sorrow And let a tear Slip down my cheek. I love you, dear, But I mean nothing to you. I put all my cards on the table And you pushed them aside; Now I have nothing And nowhere to hide. My heart’s bare to you now And I’ve given you my all; But, here I am standing Alone in my room, Cursing the day I thought love was true.