I got an email from you today, it has been years, I thought I would never hear from you again after what happened. There was nothing in the message, just an empty page, and I was glad. You followed up with a second - said you were deleting and accidentally hit "send," and something about an intense conversation. I could have opened the door, responded, let you back in - but you damage me when that happens - and I cannot allow it again, ever. It's not healthy for me. It never was.