this letter is under my copy of a tale of two cities that you love so much.
([to: E] hey.)
there are days where i am nobody. there are days where i am the person you know.
there are days where we don't talk.
there are days where we talk and i talk too much and you tell me you never want to see me again.
i say, okay.
(okay okay okay okay okay ?)
it's the first time that i did leave. today marks the day i haven't seen you in two weeks.
today my kneecaps clank when i walk. i can't go to you because my kneecaps make too much noise and i don't want you to hear me.
i had a dream where you left. you never leave. it's always me.
but you left and you never came back and all i had was your sweater and your phone and a grave.
i woke up and i remembered that i left. it's been two weeks.
([from: E] hey.)
oh, look. it's you. hello, you.
it's me who left and yet it's you who came back.
you look sad.
(why are you sad? and i realized i said that out loud)
you say, you left me. i didn't mean it.
i say, it's okay. and, i'm sorry.
you say, okay.
(okay?)
and, i love you.
i say, i love you too.