I know you don't want to hear this right now
or ever, for a matter of fact,
at least maybe not from me
but I want to tell you, and maybe you'll eventually see this
I love you
and I'm so proud of you
I miss you a lot
God if I could go back to March
and fix everything,
make it right, treat you the way you deserve
I would
but I can't
and I know you don't believe me and I wouldn't either
I don't know why I'm still so stuck on you

If I could go back to August
and if it made you better
to never meet me,
I'd make it that way
I'd never answer your messages,
Third period would be a nonexistent memory

If I could go back to every time I've hurt you
If I could punch myself in the ******* face
If I could change a lot of things
the main one being me
I'd fix it all
I want to ******* change
but even then
this is never going to be okay again will it?
or is that just me?