if only i had the courage to tell you
about all the hidden thoughts and feelings
that are kept inside of me;
how much i never want to let you go
every time we part on our separate ways,
every time it’s time to say our goodbyes’
without realising that it was our last one.
if only i could turn back time to when you
were just nobody and somebody who meant
the whole world to me.
someone who was willing to sacrifice time,
effort and space for a little introvert like me.
if only and if only i could turn back time to
when i was all alone with you;
when we were speaking about the universe
and how you thought that nothing is inevitable.
when we were speaking in a series
of smiles, laughters and giggles;
as we read each other’s eyes and emotions,
making out stories and predictions of
what was going on in each other’s brains.
but there isn’t an if only, and there will never be.