This is just how life makes me feel at this present moment..

I feel like im being swallowed in.. and the world just doesnt want to spit me out...
im drowning in negativity..  and held down by hate and jealousy from others..
seems theres always a dark thick grey cloud above my head.. whenever i get some sun in my life the cloud creeps in..

feels like im going no where.. yet my passion and determination is still there.. to move forward no matter the world..

i truly feel alone like theres nobody who gets me.. im usually the one who understands others but have never had someone genuinely try to understand me without an agenda..

i always tell myself its okay...you have a dream... a goal.. and i can and i will reach it never mind the world..

i have a little boy.. my son.. who i always  say to "i cant is dead" it sounds a bit harsh but he inspires me, he lives by that saying better than i do.. he really looks up to me.. and i want to play through for him...

i can! i will!

nevermind the world.