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May 2015
My life is a mess
I don’t know who I am anymore
How can I be gay if I don’t understand
My own gender role?
How can I be good
If people only see the bad?
How can I be here
If I don’t know where ‘here’ is?
How can I go on living
If I don’t understand life?
How can I have friends
When I am afraid to trust?
How can I get help
If there’s no one around?
How can I exist
If my existence is worthless?
How can I touch lives
When people don’t want me there?
How can I open up
If the doors of my heart are locked?
How can God, or anyone love me
When I don’t love myself?
Do I even know how to feel?
Can I feel other than pain?
The loneliness and questioning
Eats away at my very soul
Until there’s nothing left of me
But the hollow shell of a sad girl
Who only wanted to help others
And feel the respect and companionship
That she was so willing to give everyone else.
But by then, she’s just a useless doll
Without a soul
Without the ability to feel.
The only feeling that flows through my veins
Is melancholy emptiness.
I'm not really able to explain what exactly I'm feeling right now other than confusion and depression. But hey, I guess that's normal for me. It's only a matter of time before I'm put on meds or thrown in the ****** bin... Life can be so cruel sometimes...
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Melancholy Dreams  Friend Zone
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