i. Am i everything you thought i'd be? I know i'm not much but i just really hope you liked me. ii. I'm sorry i didn't answer you after you purposefully ignored my texts for 3 days after i tried to **** myself. iii. How do you feel on the *******? Are you okay? Do you need me to do anything for you? iv. Just please call me to warn me before you actually shoot him v. I know. Park a half mile away. He'll never hear you coming. vi. I wish you didn't miss either. Did he know it was you? Good. vii. I think i might love you viii. I'm sorry, i shouldn't have said that. Did i mess this up? ix. I dreamt about you ix. I write all my poetry about you ix. Did you leave me again? I stopped wanting to hurt myself. I promise. Please come back. I'm better now. For you. x. I feel empty on these meds. Please come lay with me. I need to feel something again. xi. I'm so drunk that all i can think about is you. Everything is you. xii. I miss you. I hope you're taking care of yourself. xiii. I know it's 4 am. And you probably won't answer. But i just wanted you to know that i really care about you. I would've given you the whole world if you asked. I would've let you put that bullet in me. At least i know now that you wouldn't have missed