I’m beginning to think my hands don’t belong to me They grip for things I don’t want Hold hands with people I don’t need Put things in my system that i Am highly allergic to Like almonds, sesame seeds, and despondency They are always holding onto garbage That I think I’ve thrown away There is always a folded gum wrapper or a straw cover Betwixt my lonely digits
Sometimes they choke me until I lose myself completely and wake up somewhere far-off and dark with sweat everywhere but my palms
I’m beginning to think my hands Don’t like me That I am just an appendage to them That all my other parts Know who is really in charge here There is a phantom feeling Of other hands holding them tight And when I look down it’s just them single-handed And sinister
The nails on them grow too fast I can’t keep up Knives clumsily dangling At my sides At all time I want to wear mittens in summer time
I’m beginning to think my hands Would betray me at any chance Are just waiting for the opportunity For me to look away in the shower Or put them down on a table of weapons And forget them there. What do they need me for? They flirt better, Hold on tighter, And fight harder to live then I ever could.
I don’t feel safe with them Call an authority Handcuff me to a solid surface (hold them tight until help arrives)