In my head I saw the potential life. The one that included not just you but I. You would change and come with me and shift and grow and adjust to being free. We would explore and create. I imagined us cooking dinner. I never said it, but I couldn't wait. I liked the thought of us, both foreign to this place. Decorating the house, and learning each others ways. And these little ideas they settled comfortably into my brain. Nothing but snippets of an unspoken plan that are now nothing but self inflicted pain.