my first binder came by air mail from China or Japan and i thought that it would fit after having accidentally told my mother i was transgender and needed something to hide my ******* the look on her face broke my heart so i backpedaled and said it was for cosplay my heart too broke that day because i was afraid that she wouldn’t love her son as much as she loved her daughter
and it went sour for a while we yelled instead of talked i over dosed and self harmed instead of asking for help and then i tried to **** myself in a rather selfish manner my little sister was right next door and i didn’t care because right then i was packed and ready to go
but who ever resides up there wouldn’t let me enter the pearly whites or the burned and blackened coffin doors of hell which ever would get the biggest laugh because i assumed that my life was the **** of a joke that i wouldn’t be told the punch line to rob told me it was sara’s dad the same person that kicked him out too and i believe in that with all of my being because it’s better than believing in nothing at all
back to my being transgender which is all my poetry is about that and cutting and over dosing and the promise of *** still to be fulfilled and how much i hate myself i am a broken record but i read somewhere to write what you know and my sadness is all that i know i accidentally became my depression and lost myself along the way
i am transgender which means i was given the gender that my reproductive organs expressed i identified as a girl for the first sixteen years of my life then tumblr and family told me what transgender means and i found that it applied to me at first i was scared i didn’t tell my family first though i did tell my uncle first when i came out as a lesbian i told some friends first because facing the screen was easier than facing my family
but it does get better and you should stick around to see that it really does because the sun always comes out tomorrow whether you sleep with your curtains closed or not the sun always comes out tomorrow annie agrees with me and we are going to lose more and more brother and sisters but we can stop this just listen to us love us accept us and for the love of god don’t ask me what is in my pants