Would I take it all back?

That's a dumb question.
Not all of it.
A life is a terribly hard thing to repeat.

What was that?

You meant it as in parts?

Things left up to only me?

You should have specified.
Well,  sure.
No one wants to wake up in a hospital.
No one wants to watch their grandmother die.
Nobody wants anything bad to happen.
Which leads to the question you should have asked sir.

Can the good exist without the bad?

Probably not.
Without the bad we cannot learn.
Without failure we forget success.
Greatness becomes the norm.

There are things that I have done.
That I struggle to tell myself.
Much less others.
But I have done them.
Thus the bad decisions shape me
as much as the good ones.

So to answer your question.

Your first one.

No.

No. I would not take it all back.