I grew up living by the law of escalation. There were no holds barred, very little hesitation. I wasn't physically imposing but I fought like a ******* savage. Winning doesn't matter when you're just plain mean. I got my satisfaction from making boys bleed. We progressed, fist fights hastily became grave. People started swinging everything from rocks to blades. I escaped, joked it was my "retirement." And yea I've stopped the violence, let go of some hate. But I still carry knives to this day, just in case.