Over my shoulder when all the
lights faded
The looming end has all but
been written
From over my shoulder I pray I've
gone mad, Tho'
fate would submit me
To a glimpse of her shadow.

Not a day passes
She won't show me
her face
A scar in the minds eye
A memory misplaced.
I plead to her
"Let go!"
I yearn to be freed
I spot once more
her shadow
Where my own once casts from
my feet.

I don't believe in
true love
Tho' I'm open to opinion
I wagered once with
your god
Beseeching him to listen
Let there be no
other lover
To woo me from the path
If destiny be fabricated
Let love sway
not last.

She couldn't help but think
Had we crossed five years later
We could of saved ourselves
from falling victim to
our fears.
And each time one door closes
And as I learn to
be alone
Her voice echoes not in
my head
but from out the shadows
"It is what it is,
All people lie.
Know they look up to you,
And hold your head high."

I'm terrified my
courage stripped
She does not appear for resolution
I will not sleep, for fear to wake
To pay for my decisions.
She stole my trust, and I
lashed out
Taking from her youth and innocence
For this she'll take away my normal
And watch me bathe in darkness.

She can't know
About you
She can't know you're real
I beg you not to fall for me
Please don't disappear.