I like the idea of being with you I dislike the idea of going thru this with you I think I want you enough so I may become strong enough but I have this sinking feeling that you don't feel the same I don't want to blame I just would like you to explain I used to see the spark in your eye so I know it wasn't a lie but now it's replaced and I would like to know what changed. You say it's you not me but can you see that this wasn't the way. What did I say? What did I display?