one two three four five here it comes again one two three four five but why is she surprised one two three four five (they said the counting would help) one two three four five “look in the mirror” one two three four five “tree trunk thighs / stomach expanding like the universe” one two three four five outside doesn’t matter (they said) one two three four five “eyes too wide / nose too long / lips don’t close” one two three so she can’t stop the words pouring out in heart-piercing whispers one two “ugly / unlovable / unkissable / unfriendable” one maybe one day she’d pour enough ugly out to be size zero