Apr 2015
We are so different
Sometimes I wonder why
You even care for me at all
When I told you I loved you
You told me you didn’t,
But you wouldn’t treat me different
It’s difficult to be in love
With your best friend
I see you all the time
But many times
I feel like you look right through me
You look at the outside
Not at the inside
You don’t comment when I’m upset
Like you don’t notice
Even when I tell you I’m upset
You stay silent.
Are you ignoring me?
Or are you giving me a shoulder to cry on?
I don’t know
It’s hard to know
Many times I feel like you don’t understand me
But we’ve known each other
For 5 years.
I feel like I’m alone in this world
But you bring in some happiness
Even though you don’t understand me
You are still my best friend.
Sometimes I wonder why
You even care for me at all
When I told you I loved you
You told me you didn’t,
But you wouldn’t treat me different
It’s difficult to be in love
With your best friend
I see you all the time
But many times
I feel like you look right through me
You look at the outside
Not at the inside
You don’t comment when I’m upset
Like you don’t notice
Even when I tell you I’m upset
You stay silent.
Are you ignoring me?
Or are you giving me a shoulder to cry on?
I don’t know
It’s hard to know
Many times I feel like you don’t understand me
But we’ve known each other
For 5 years.
I feel like I’m alone in this world
But you bring in some happiness
Even though you don’t understand me
You are still my best friend.
This was written for my best friend, my true feelings. Even though he doesn't seem to understand me, I can't imagine my life without him. I did fall in love with him, but he politely told me he wasn't interested, and the next day, told me he was gay. He had told me about a week before that he was bi, and my feelings for him blossomed, because I had basically always known him as gay, so I knew it wouldn't work. But I pretty much always had feelings for him. Even now, I know it could never work, and I am also in love with a girl that has told me she loves me back. I guess there's somebody for everybody, even someone like me
