i love it.

the pain,
the absolute torture,
of my heart ripping itself up,

at first i hated all it entailed,
but now i **** up for fun,
because the shockwaves of aching
is what keeps me up a night,

it livens my body,
i walk around in pieces,
yet i've learned to live with being unfinished,

and maybe it won't get better,
but at least i've learned to love the pain