It’s that moment when you realize he didn’t really love you and he DIDN’T actually want to be with you when you say to yourself he only "loved ” you out of pity, because in reality he was in love with someone else and now everything that crosses your path somehow reminds you of him and your wrists are stained permanently because you thought it would be the only way to get rid of him without hurting anyone important but instead those memory filled scars only remind you of him because he is the reason behind them after all, but you blame yourself, because these days everything is simply your fault and you sit here and question yourself "where did I go wrong , what should I have changed to make my life more bearable” and you cry because you miss it but you don’t know what part of it you miss you cry because you think you ****** up and you cry because when you cry there’s a million and one things to cry about and you hear"oh wow you guys would be an amazing couple" and you try not to cry because you’re scared he will be disgusted by the thought of you, and you try not to cry mostly because there are people around ….you try not to cry because you don’t want anyone to know you’re broken…but you’ve failed already…you’re not even thinking silently anymore you’re screaming it for the whole world to hear. …