If only they knew the constant struggle of everyday.
People telling you it'll be "okay"
Waking up wishing that you wouldn't one day.
Starring into a distance slowly losing your self.
Not caring about mental or physical health.
If only they knew the smile on your face wasn't real.
If only they knew you were reaching the point where you couldn't feel.
Numbness.
Yes, that sounds right about now.
Sitting in silence.
But my thoughts are so loud.
The promise.
No longer feeling the need to keep.
Crying on knees.
"I'm weak."
Save me..
Next day nothings change.
I continue to smile so they don't see my pain.
I continue to act like everything is the same.
Continue to allow these thoughts to drive me insane.