I am the moon shining bright in the sky
and the sun that brings life
I am a miracle
but
I am in sorrow
it  will not drown me
it will not consume me
I will rise above it all
I will push
...
and yet
I feel zapped, trapped
will I fall?

the empty feeling in the pit of my stomach
the satin stains that pave yesterdays pains and fill up the page
in the midst of the unknown
I am in a battle with myself
Torn, between love and hate
Torn, between right and wrong
Torn, between yes and no
I told you so
looking for a place to call home
Torn by darkness
the feeling of being consumed
It surrounds me
the creeping shadows filled with doubt
hide the door that leads to the way out