Should my heart be
pounding?
Should my breath be
fogging up my
path?
Should my eyes be
swelling up with tears?
Should I be swearing and
slapping myself?
Should I think you
despise me?
Should I avoid you
too?
Should I fight back
if you push me?
Should I reply with
understanding if you
yell at me?
Should I finally stitch up
these scars in my head?
Should I receive the
lobotomy?
Should I wave if I see you?
Should I keep walking if I see you?
Should I give you the finger if I see you?
Should I burst into tears and say we need to talk ?
Should I congratulate you for doing better without me?
Should I get naked for you and tell you you can assault me as you wish?
Should I even think any of this?