As i break out of the prison of my own creation
Time slows
And I think about the unforgettable moment i saw you for the first time
I honestly thought you were a very pretty girl
My mistake
And all of the other unforgettable moments on the bus with your head on my lap and my hands running through your hair as i sang to you and talked to you about all the best memories before you
And all of the worst ones
I made you check my back for bruises after i was smashed into a door so hard the doorknob hit just the right spot and i crumpled to the floor
And I was kicked from there since my attacker was much too lazy to get me to stand up
I learned not to fight back
Even when i was being choked because one of my friends boyfriends tried to cheat on her with me
And all of the times I've spent dangerously alone
And about my dogs
And the ducks
And all the cool animals I've been around
And everything
You told me I'm too young for suicide attempts
I told you you're way too young to chewing tobacco
And we were both right
And I said i love you
But you don't even like me back
Why have you been dating people who just want to ******* while you were lonely when i want to love you and feed your fat ***
I don't understand
Maybe I'm just weird
Ugh
And I end up walking right back into the prison because it feels safer