The feeling of guilt slowly rising up,
it suddenly changes to sorrow.
Stomach starts to ache brain freezes up;
you only want to repeat the words of shame and sorrow.
See your happiness just in arms reach,
you push it away,
scream no,
it leaves,
you lay there,
still on the kitchen floor
crying your eyes out,
sudden emotion changes again,
you feel proud of what you did!
You stand tall,
shoulders high,
smile on your face and away you go
happy as ever
but never to speak of the awful pain locked inside.


Guilt and shame,
its all the same,
starts at the heart,
captures the brain,
disappears,
then starts all over again....


"its time to put on a smile and play pretend"