My eyelids are burning And I don't know why I'm still awake It's 3 AM and I just want to sleep But for some reason I can't And it's not because of a certain person or a certain event I just never felt the need to be asleep even though being awake ***** I'm so tired And I'm so exhausted And I'm so done with being awake past 3 AM I have to be up in five hours Did you know you're the first person to ask me why I stay awake Multiple people ask how But you asked if was it was insomnia And I just said yes Because I didn't want to tell you that the nightmares are so bad that I rip my hair out in the middle of the night I wake up sometimes with my hands bleeding because my nails have been digging into my palms with fear I wake up to my leg spasm They've been tense for hours I can't do this anymore