I caught myself on seeking you in everything around me;
I seek you in smoke of my morning cigarettes, in every person passing my bitter, dusky windows,
I seek you in each of my cold, lifeless breaths coming out under lousy haze,
I seek you in empty rooms of our flat, alcohol smuges staining our walls,
I seek you in every flaw craved onto my skin, in every bruise adorning my body like diamonds,
I seek you in eyes of strangers, in cracked mirrors crying out hurtful truth,
I seek you within my lies, telling everyone I’m fine.
I seek you because I’m nothing without you, I can feel myself slipping away.