music
too loud
to even hear
your own thoughts

in the bathroom tub
contemplating
if it's worth it
or not

when you go
under the water
you hear
the faint sound
of the music

your favorite song is on
you know
all the words
but don't come up

your under
until you know
five more seconds

and they will
have to break down
the door
just to get an
answer

that you
won't be able
to help them with

you hear
that loving can hurt
sometimes
and
it gets hard
sometimes

but you can't love him
he hurt you
you forgave
but that's
all you can do

you can pretend
that it will
get easier
but
you've tried before

so maybe
you won't
come up next time

but maybe
you'll get scared
and come up
ten seconds early