It’s hard to say exactly how I was feeling today
When I saw you admit that you had actually made a mistake
You humbled yourself and admitted you were wrong?
You admitted you messed up? Mr. Perfect? NO!
I was glad for a little while, pleased that you had finally fallen
Pleased that you were hurt in the same way you hurt me

Later, my heart softened
After I yelled at you in my head
Reminding you that you made a mistake when you left me
Your life fell apart when you left me
You are where you are now because you left me
Back to feeling sorry for yourself
Back to the drugs, alcohol and girls
Broke, no life, and about to lose everything

My life is OK, better than yours anyway
I’m still here, but you’re too proud
I still love you, but you’re too proud
Drop your guard and humble your heart
Admit that what you’re doing to yourself is wrong
What others have done to you and me was wrong
That the path you have chosen to live is wrong

I told you that you were going to do this
But you never listen
You never heeded my warnings and dove in head first
I won’t rub your nose in it, I think what you’re going through is punishment enough
But I don’t feel sorry for you either
My heart hurts for you, which leaves me a little bitter and confused
I feel some compassion for you because I love you
But these feelings also confuse me

I should be leaping for joy that you’re hurt
I should be malicious and excited
But I am not
When you truly love a person, you hurt for that person
These are new feelings for me
And I do not understand them
I do not understand this feeling of being compassionate
for someone who hurt me so badly!
I guess that shows how much I’ve changed
And how much you really mean to me