I breathed it into my mouth
And it slid down my throat
Into the pit of my stomach
And that raw, raw feeling
Is burning my sides while
I sit and pretend the world is not falling.
It is an unknown substance, a feeling.
I smell the air and it’s toxic
And it singes my lungs and
Makes my eyes spill tears.
I am horrified and exhilarated all at once
The emotion is pure and clean and real
Like the world around me
But it’s all haze, like fog
Blurry and misshapen and I try and blink it away
But it’s like I’m underwater and I’m floating upside down.
The world is like a kaleidoscope
The pictures look different every time.
I am one with every sense
All five of them blazing on fire
Like I was on overdrive
Spinning, spinning like a tea cup at a carnival.
All the while laughing like I was young again
Because I feel so alive.
I wish I could show you just how amazing
It feels to be human.