Waging my wars in my mind, body, and soul Shouldn't be this hard. Emptiness.. What is this? I'm probably not as fine as I seem Cried myself sick, need a distraction that I can't find Sometimes to stay alive you gotta **** your mind Why is it always stormy days that keep me company Funny, because I love the rain Usually a semblance of pain, gloomy days. But it's calming to me.. But the hurt won't go away, It shouldn't even be around I shouldn't be hurt over these things I shouldn't want to stay in bed all day I shouldn't feel like a burden to everyone I shouldn't feel this ****** up I shouldn't think the way I do, I take for granted a lot of things Someone tell me.. does it get better? do I stop wanting to give up? Been this way for a while now, thought I was getting better and really, I was... but now I think I'm the worst I've ever been and I'm craving something anything to drown out these thoughts preferably scalding to throw away the burning knife that isn't real it's a figment of my mind Broken fragments that were almost whole