It’s been a rough ride the last couple of days,
Including bumping into him this morning.

I wish…
I could run towards him and hugged him.
And if that weren’t enough,
I whispered into his ear,
“I missed you so much”.

It was an outcry for help,
An extended arm to be
Pulled out from a world of pain.

He said nothing.

Everything after that was just a blur,
And I don’t remember much.
Eventually we said “bye”
And we walked away from each other.
I never turned around.

Today still,
I have difficulties describing
What happened inside of me.
It was an emotional turmoil,
My stomach knotted.

*Somehow I got home and just fell into the bed.
Then something happened that pretty much saved me.