we saw each other for the first time
since you left
and i was an apathetic mess with my arms crossed over the hole of where my heart used to be
and you were a regretful paradox with clear liquid weakness lining your eyelids
i looked at you with empty eyes
and you grabbed a knife and stuck it in my abdomen
you carved and dug
you were looking for the part of me that loved you
that needed you
but you killed her when you left