i wish that i could love you,
but it seems that i can't allow myself that gruesome of a demise
i wish that i could love you,
but whenever i think of you and i and you granting me a title,
just to forget my name and remember their's once it floats off of their tongue when you ask them how they're doing,
i remember that i cannot love you
i wish that i could love you,
but i am so content with the feeling of my chest at rest
and i don't wish to feel an ache if i were to catch you in the arms of another
it is so simple to leave you be, so simple to detach myself emotionally
i wish that i could love you,
but if i give you every part of me, i can see it now
the blood of my heart in your hands
the ripped muscle of the ***** wrapped around your fingers
the picture of you and them interlocked, mirrored in my eyes
as tears float on my cheeks
and now i know
now i know that i cannot love you
so please do not ask
Jan 15, 2017
Jan 15, 2017 at 6:17 PM UTC
we saw each other for the first time
since you left
and i was an apathetic mess with my arms crossed over the hole of where my heart used to be
and you were a regretful paradox with clear liquid weakness lining your eyelids
i looked at you with empty eyes
and you grabbed a knife and stuck it in my abdomen
you carved and dug
you were looking for the part of me that loved you
that needed you
but you killed her when you left
Mar 31, 2015
Mar 31, 2015 at 1:24 PM UTC
you said you were leaving
i was overwhelmed by this happiness
you were finally out of my life
i could finally be free
so you packed your things, you went to your car and loaded it
then,
you turned to me
pulled out a handgun
and shot me in the chest
my skin tore and presented a large gaping hole
and from it poured bright red disappointment
my ribs cracked and out rolled my heart onto the concrete of my patio
you laughed a hearty laugh with wicked undertones
you shoved your gun into your pocket
watched me choke, watched me scream at the top of my lungs, struggle for air, struggle for anything
then towered me, bent down swiftly and picked up the bleeding thing
you smirked at me, "only taking what's mine"
i never saw you again
Mar 30, 2015
Mar 30, 2015 at 9:05 PM UTC
He laughed,
His bright green eyes lighting up,
His choppy messy hair,
Flying up as he tilted his head back,
Staring at the ceiling,
He looked back sad,
Whispering," maybe you could've loved yourself"
Mar 30, 2015
Mar 30, 2015 at 8:51 PM UTC
CREATE AN OCEAN OF YOUR BLOOD PLEASE
AND JUST DROWN ME IN IT
LET IT TAKE OVER MY LUNGS
LET IT BE ALL I CAN BREATHE
LET IT BE ALL I CAN SEE
Mar 30, 2015
Mar 30, 2015 at 8:41 PM UTC
I'll leave my window open
so in darkness-deep
maybe, just maybe
you'll hear me weep.
Mar 30, 2015
Mar 30, 2015 at 8:37 PM UTC
I'm sorry but I can't love you because
It's just that there are a cluster of razors inside my throat whenever you stare at me too long
I'm sorry but its just that swallowing them would hurt less than looking into your eyes
Because I can't look into your eyes
I can't do it
I can't
Because you're incapable of emotions and I have too many of them
I've offered you some and you've refused so now it's my turn
I refuse to love a ******* robot
I refuse to only see my own emotions reflecting inside your eyes
I am sorry but I can't love you
Mar 30, 2015
Mar 30, 2015 at 8:36 PM UTC
You can ask whatever you want, darling but
Oh please, don't ask me why I'm always angry
Please don't ask me why my lungs are always filled with fire
When fire is all you've ever spat at me
Mar 30, 2015
Mar 30, 2015 at 8:27 PM UTC