Inside I'm dying slowly.
All those around see my fixated smile.
Holding back tears, I've been drowning.
Head plunged into a bottomless depth.
Forcing a smile trying to keep out the water.
Unable to hold this fixture.
Everyone is beginning to see the actual picture.
Choking on words.
My vision becomes blurred.
Cold filling my lungs.
I can't breath I try to run.
Held down I can barely catch my breath.
Then splash forced back into the blue abyss.