Feelings unbalanced.
The heavy weight of what I want and what's good for me.
Parts of you drift in my mind.
The sanctions of time, I just wanted you to be mine.
I deserve better and I know that.
But parts of me still feel your impact.
You came rushing towards me creating feelings I cannot describe.   You were my high, I always wanted you by my side.
Please.
Release your grip.
Loving you is toxic.
I feel my lungs collapsing.
Why do you get me like this.
Knots and twists.
Then again there's another.
Feelings pure and alike.
How am I still stuck on your poison when he is granting me eternal life.
You are slowly killing me and he is keeping me alive.
I'm stuck between what I want and what I need.
Help me.
I'm unstable, parts of my heart shattered and loving you was just a fable.
Merely hearing your name and the memories begin to choke me.
Sort of how you would provoke me. I regret everything left unsaid.
All of this uncertainty coursing through my head.
The heavy weight of what I want and whats good for me?
Why won't your presence just let me be..